on feeling hermit.
hm hm.... everyone is out.either at vivian's 21st bday party or at the panti trek...i chose to plant myself at home. simply cos i'm feeling hermit. i dont know how to describe the feeling, i know it's really selfish of me, it's a mixture of sleepyness, a nagging headache and fuggliness. i wish there's school on monday, i miss my friends. yet i chose to sit at home today, how.. urgh..... have u ever had the feeling that u wasted a perfectly fine day, doing nothing? or maybe it's cos of the fact that i'm not used to being at home for a whole day, esp at night, it's usually past midnight when i get home.. i crash on the sofa while watching discovery, wake up an hr later, shower, wait for my hair to dry then sleep. dont ask why the wierd behavior, i'm a procrastinator.i've been eating up everything that comes my way, scary isnt it? i practically spent all my waking hrs today eating whatever i see at home. blegh. wake up, train, lunch, get home, snack, sleep, wake up, snack, dinner, snack, supper, snack.nv climbed as many stairs in my life as i did this morning. so the 40 storey HDB blocks do exist... climb until seh man.yesterday's SMUX gathering didnt go well. sigh. dun wanna think bout it. i think i didnt put enough thought into it. the xmas bbq went so much better.. maybe it's the fact that pple had sthing to do and there wasnt another performance going on..the food was nice but the caterer under supplied. damn dumb la, he was so concerned bout the company's image yet he under supplied.. i dun think we're that big eaters... of course, there were leachers, ultimately disgusting. do u need dinner that badly?! wtf. wtf cos i explicitly told you that u're not invited, and i'm seldom this mean. u disgusted all of us, period.back frm supper! :) (yes.. i have the tendency to write half an entry and leave the com for hours :b)
tonite wasnt as bad as i tot i'd be....had a long and meaningful chat with jord. he surprises me by how nicely the way he puts things across, despite how ugly reality is, reminds me of simin's theory. a skill i have yet to perfect. your theory on drifting has set me thinking...a lot."if i really do like a guy a lot, i don't need him to treat me like a princess" *ponders*another dear friend who's graduating, the thought of it saddens me, will we talk significantly less, like with yunfeng who left last sem?mleva's leaving too...
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