yeah, so childish riteeeee... soooper sleepy & un-glam.. but i dun careeeeee..

went to the gym today (after sooo loooong).. bumped into jord.. so we were running on the threadmill.. then kayboon came along.. n started running on my other side.. could hear the threadmills on both sides of me going *hoof..hoof....hooof hoof* under their sheer speed and WeighT.. ahah.. argh.. there're all graduated.. sob. i'll miss them :(

while running, i saw the news bout the erupting mt merapi in java. n i'm gonna be in bali.
mt rinjani, 2 islands away, ho ho..
are we gonna turn into bahkwa?
"It (mt merapi) is situated at a subduction zone, where the Indo-Australian Plate is sliding beneath the Eurasian Plate..."
the whole damn indonesia is on the indo australian plate. DUH. howww..?
with volcanic eruptions come earthquakes & tsunamis.
and i've got a good mind to delay my departure date so we can dive in bali.
greeeeaaaat.
i'm not destined to step onto bali.
i was faced with the same kinda dilema when we wanted to go dive in bali last hols! hoho.

i'm not afraid of dying..
it's more about the people around me.
i need to be responsible towards my parents and others who love me.
looking back at the similan dive that i decided not to go for after returning frm titiwangsa.. i remember the fear tt gripped me when i heard of the tsunami, they were so close to it. saved by the fact that it was a live-on-board.
i had my air ticket ready, what held me from going were my badly scarred legs and my aching body.
they were friends, and i was so damn worried, what more their parents?
i dont want to subject my parents to that.
not everyone was lucky enough to have their loved ones return home.
his aunt didn't.

being the only kid, i cant go and not return... u get me? ;b

oh well...i dunno what to do..
it's like, they didnt know of the risk, i well know and i'm risking it for my own selfish intentions.
go up an active volcano and risk meeting a tsunami while diving. best.

and i wonder if it'll be messy over there since they're evacuating pple...

i wish i could sleep on this whole issue and wake up with a solution.
a win-win one.
hurhur.

ok, typing all these made me realise, i forfeited 2 return tickets cos i decided not to go dive.
twiceeeee.
:b

waiting and guessing just isn't my idea of fun.